Thursday, March 1, 2007

1 March 2007 - Mind in Turmoil

I've been to hell and back these past few months...I can be compared to the "Baudelaire kids" because I have experienced a series of unfortunate events...My mind is in turmoil right now, I don't know if I'm experiencing mid-life crisis, what the hell?! I'm only on my mid-20's.

I am PRESSURED and STRESSED OUT with my work. I have a high-paying job but I'm not happy. I'm REALLY trying to look for another company but they can not match my existing compensation package! I'm a College graduate with MBA units...I am qualified but competition is so tough...Sometimes, I want to put the blame on our economy, if the economy is not terrible then a lot of companies will invest here, therefore, a lot of job vacancies.I'm so sick and tired of my work...***sigh***

My lovelife SUCKS bigtime! I just broke up with my deceitful ex-boyfriend who cheated on me. May he and his girl ROT IN HELL for all I care!

Why do I feel like hell??? I feel that I'm the blacksheep in my family..My sister's career is sky-rocketing high! And I am here at the bottom, still waiting for the right opportunity to pass by..My friends...I realized that some of them were just using me...

I feel so alone...How I wish I could have peace of mind, even just for 5 minutes! Well, I would appreciate it if it's more than 5 minutes...Sometimes, I want to retreat to a very secluded beach, where no one knows me and no one can find me...Just lie on the sand, drink margaritas, watch the sunset, listen to musice..I can do whatever I want, I can flirt with anyone, I can be myself...whatever!





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