I am NUMB

There are a lot of things going in my mind right now:

1. My sister is leaving for the US and I am deeply affected. I am dependent with my sister. I would always ask her opinion if I want to buy things for myself, If I want to get a haircut, about my career...All the things that's going on with my life right now, she knows about it. She is my confidant. And she would leave me. I don't want to be selfish because I know that this is what she wants. And right now, I am really trying hard to accept the fact that she is leaving.

2. My "pasaway" boyfriend is giving me a hard time all the time. I like him a lot and I don't want to give up easily in this so-called relationship.

3. I still need to generate income for my next term's tuition fee for my masteral studies. I don't want to ask money from my parents because it my decision to study again so I have to deal with this on my own. If only I look like a Paris Hilton and I would have lots of rich boyfriend...I would ask them to support my masteral studies...hehehehe...tsktsk

4. I need new clients right now to impress my boss!!!!! It is really frustrating because it is really hard to schedule an appointment with a client. DAMN those purchasers!!!! They are really a pain in the ass!

Men I really need a break right now...