I am NUMB

There are a lot of things going in my mind right now:

1. My sister is leaving for the US and I am deeply affected. I am dependent with my sister. I would always ask her opinion if I want to buy things for myself, If I want to get a haircut, about my career...All the things that's going on with my life right now, she knows about it. She is my confidant. And she would leave me. I don't want to be selfish because I know that this is what she wants. And right now, I am really trying hard to accept the fact that she is leaving.

2. My "pasaway" boyfriend is giving me a hard time all the time. I like him a lot and I don't want to give up easily in this so-called relationship.

3. I still need to generate income for my next term's tuition fee for my masteral studies. I don't want to ask money from my parents because it my decision to study again so I have to deal with this on my own. If only I look like a Paris Hilton and I would have lots of rich boyfriend...I would ask them to support my masteral studies...hehehehe...tsktsk

4. I need new clients right now to impress my boss!!!!! It is really frustrating because it is really hard to schedule an appointment with a client. DAMN those purchasers!!!! They are really a pain in the ass!

Men I really need a break right now...

I think I love him and I hate it

Happy birthday to my special someone...

I just got back from a special night with a special someone. It is his birthday today and we waited for 12am so I could be the first one to greet him and be with him on his 29th birthday.

I got him a white shirt from Nautica (which fits perfectly on him by the way) and a perfume from Polo (Romance Silver - it smells soooo good!)...and I can tell that he sincerely liked my gift...whew!

We waited for his birthday just cuddling and hugging each other..This is one of those times wherein you want the time to literally stop so you could spend more time with your special someone..I am not inlove with him yet because I know that it is really too early to be inlove with him..But I really like him..We both came from a bad relationship and I am willing to take that risk again if he's also willing to do that..I just wish that he would be ready to commit.

All I know is that I'm happy this very moment..I don't want to think about any complications..I just want to be happy even for a short span of time..