PMS

Pre-Menstrual Symptoms....

Depression, frustration, moody, mainit ang ulo, masakit ang puson, always craving for food, sensitive...lahat na lang nafe-feel ko ngayon, and it is not good...

Actually, I'm drowning with my own sadness...alam mo yung feeling na sa sobrang kalungkutan para kang nalulunod at gusto mo lang makahinga? I always dream of falling in a dark bottomless pit and I hate it, everytime I wake up, I always gulp for fresh air. That's what I'm feeling right now.

Ang naiisip ko ngayon is yung ginawa sa kin ng ex ko. He cheated behind my back. I trusted him, and he cheated me. Dati kapag may gusto akong lalaki and malalaman ko na may gf siya, sasabihin ko lang sa mga friends ko "GF lang pala eh". Now that I have experienced it, na sobrang sakit ng iwanan ka at magmukha kang tanga, I give my respect to those current girlfriends out there. Mahirap bantayan ang taong mahal mo. Hindi mo naman pwedeng ikulong na lang sila sa luob ng bahay or lagyan ng harang yung mata nila para hindi sila makakatingin sa ibang babae. Tama nga yung kasabihan na "If you love a person, set him/her free", kung mahal ka talaga nya, babalik siya sayo.

It's been a year and I can't seem to move on...Damn! gusto ko na mag-move on. Actually, I never even asked my ex what really happened. He only told me that he met a girl and I never asked him to explain what happened. I really do not want to know. Makaka-move on kaya ako if ever nalaman ko yung buong story? Ang sakit-sakit magmahal. Call me melodramatic, I really don't care. It's traumatic. Parang ayoko ng magmahal pa kung lolokohin din lang naman ako.

Damn! how I really hate PMS..