30 days to go...

The countdown continues...30 more days to go...I have already sent my resignation letter to our Singapore office yesterday but since it is a public holiday today in Singapore, I will be able to know their reactions tomorrow..

Resigning can be difficult...I think its saying goodbye to your colleagues...I really hate saying goodbye to a friend, lover and most especially to my family...My heart just breaks...

That's all for now, I think I'm gonna cry for a little...

34 days to go

I will be tendering my resignation on the 30th of May 2007...

That'll be 34 more days of career suffering...

I have to bear the remaining 34 days because I only have 4 1/2 days of annual leave...Every year I am given only 7 days annual leave (what the???!). It's a long list of complaints but what the hell, I will be resigning anyway...

Well, for 3 years I have learned a lot...being employed in this company tested my patience...a lot! I've never thought I had this kind of patience. It also improved my sales skills...I'm grateful that when I entered this company, it increased my salary by 100% and now I am able to bargain my salary to another 100%...

It's just that if you're not happy with your co-worker and the management, even if the salary is very attractive, I might as well leave the company and look for another one...

Anyway, this will be my official countdown....34 more days to go..

Mahal ko pa din siya hanggang ngayon. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi ilang buwan na yung nakalipas simula ng malaman kong niloko niya ako. Is it because I was serious and committed with the relationship? Sabi nga ng mga kaibigan ko...Ibang level na to! Gustong gusto ko siyang balikan kahit na ako ang nadehado pero kapag naiisip ko na he cheated me behind my back (I was so damn clueless), napapaisip ako, is it worth it? Is it worth it to try again? Hindi ba kapag binalikan ko siya eh magiging paranoid lang ako forever which would definitely ruin our relationship?

In fairness, talaga namang napaka-bait nya, no questions asked. For almost 2 years, I dominated him. Sabi ng mga friends ko, under ko daw siya (not in a bad way of course). Napapaisip nga ako eh, kung ang Diyos eh marunong magpatawad, ako pa kaya? Kaya ko bang tanggapin na niloko niya ko nung mga panahon na bumigay siya sa temptasyon? Sa trabaho ko, marami akong nakikilalang mga lalake pero kahit na alam kong pwede akong makipag-fling sa kanila eh hindi ko ginawa. Iniisip ko pa lang na lokohin siya eh inaalis ko na siya sa isipan ko kasi alam ko na masasaktan ko lang yung taong mahal ko. Hindi pala lahat ng tao ay pare-pareho ang tingin pagdating sa love.

Mahal ko pa din siya pero maraming mga tanong ang dapat sagutin:

1. Kaya mo pa bang mahalin siya tulad ng pagmamahal mo dati?
2. Kaya mo bang ibalik ang trust mo sa kanya?
3. Kaya mo bang maging martyr kapag ginawa niya ulit na lokohin ka?
4. Kaya mo bang hindi siya sumbatan sa dating pangloloko na ginawa niya sa yo?
5. At eto ang pinakaimportanteng tanong sa lahat: Kaya mo bang tanggapin kapag nalaman mong HINDI KA NA NIYA MAHAL?

Naiiyak ako...Naiinis ako sa sarili ko! Gusto ko syang balikan! Pero pinipigilan ako ng pride ko! Gusto kong lunurin ang sarili ko sa trabaho para hindi ko siya maisip. Gusto kong matulog ng sobrang tagal para pag-gising ko mawawala na lang yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Gusto kong i-fast forward ang buhay ko para makilala ko yung lalaking magmamahal sa kin ng lubos. Gusto kong takasan lahat ng nararamdaman ko ngayon..

I am so productive today!!! Woohoo!!! I have managed to finish our group reporting (damn those groupmates!) and our assignment as well. My adnrenaline rush doesn't seem to want to stop that's why I ended up blogging.

I don't know if it is psychological but whenever I light my cigarette and turn on my ever-reliable IPOD, I seem to enter a brainstorming mood...my mind starts to work and I start typing away like crazy!

Oh okay, I don't look somewhat like the picture above....I looked exactly the opposite...I'm working with only my undergarments on (cause its so freaking hot!!!!), cigarette on my left hand, earphones stucked on my ears with a lot of documents scattered on my table!

Well, it doesn't matter what you look like as long as you get your work done! Really don't care! I'm soooo productive today!!!!!

Sales Manager...

I have waited for this opportunity for a very long time and guess what???? Officially, I'm the SALES MANAGER for Philippine office of our supplier! Isn't that great or what??? I am not really expecting this position, well I know that I will be pirated by our supplier but to tell you honestly, I am not really expecting that I will be picked as the Sales Manager.

This is really a blessing for me...For several months, I felt frustrated because there's nothing happening to my career. Now I believe in the saying that "If a door closes on you, another one opens". When my boyfriend broke up with me last year, I felt that everything was taken from me...I'm sad and depressed, I'm not happy with my job and colleague, my friends were being assigned to a far away island, big problem arises, the list goes on and on...

I've always said to my friends that everything happens for a reason...now I really understand what it meant...I don't have to question the guy "up there" why it all happened to me, I just have to trust Him that another opportunity will come my way and I just have to be patient..

I am really thankful for everything....YIPEEEE!!!!!

This is so true...

Your Personality is Very Rare (ESTP)

Your personality type is dominant, driven, poised, and self-aware. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 6% of all men You are Extroverted, Sensing, Thinking, and Perceiving.

Sleepless in Parañaque..

It's 1:35am and I can't sleep...I've finished my assignment in Managerial Accounting...I've updated my Ipod...I've watched lame movies shown on cable..I've checked my mail...I don't know what to do next...Oh okay! I've got a lot of things to do and I'm just putting it up until tomorrow...

Come to think of it, there are a lot of things that I should do to my life...I've been bad....and I say real bad...I have my deepest darkest secret and I really need to straighten my life...Here's my to-do list to clean up my act...

1. Ammend my relationship with my friend "up there". Now I believe in the saying: "If a door closes on you, another one opens". All along I thought He's taken all from me, I don't know the reason why but there's no need to ask why...just got to trust what He's doing.
2. I've got to lessen my bitchyness...I just got to be more kind to others...
3. I've got to be contented with what I have right now..stop with the greedy-ness!!!!
4. I have to lessen my vices (list of vices/luho: lacoste bags, capri, alcohol, high-tech gadgets, etc, etc...the list goes on and on) - Simple living is the key...
5. I've got to donate some of my earnings...but not in a boastful kind of way of course! in a anonymous kind of way is the way to go...While I was having coffee at Starbucks, I saw this brochure regarding SparkHope, education for the kids...guess I'll start with that.
6. I have to make sure that everyday, I have to do kind deeds...doesn't have to be grand or something...(e.g. be more kind to wanna-be bitches out there

Well, that's some of the few things I have in mind...got to think of more though. Now the key here is to do all of it, not in one day though...one small step at a time and I'll be fine..

Brandon Boyd...

lead singer of the band Incubus...isn't he hot?????? well, that's only an added factor, what I really like about him is his voice of course...and his eyes, and lips, and his tattoos....ok! I like everything about brandon boyd! Don't get me wrong, I'm not an obsessed fan ok? I don't want to be obsessed, I know myself, don't want to go to that stage..


I saw this guy sang in a concert in MTV and damn he sings from his heart...Based on the picture above, he is really passionate whenever he sings...Other lead vocals just shouts whenever they sing, its very irritating sometimes...

My all-time favorite Incubus song is Wish You Were Here...A love song version of an alternative rock band (well, I think they are alternative)...What I really like about Incubus' music is that it's not too loud...All their songs have meanings that they want to share with their listeners...Another favorite is Drive (the accoustic version)...and one of their recent song which is Make A Move (which was featured in the movie Stealth) and Dig...oh yeah, another favorite of mine is from their previous album and the song title is Warning...Incubus songs were about life, love and politics...I think their song Megolamaniac is about politics if I'm not mistaken...

Okay, enough about their music...check out this brandon boyd pic...no explanations needed...this guy is # 1 on my hot guys list...how I wish I could be the lips of brandon boyd on this pic...so he could bite me anytime he wants!!!! hahahaha! pervert!!


Damn!!! I was browsing thru the net for brandon boyd pics and when I saw this one...I just know that I've got to have this pic. Call me pervert, I really don't care...Is this picture sexy or what???? Well, first look on the pic I'm sure it's hot and sexy, but when I took a second look, looks kinda gayish to me...but I'll take my first impression on the pic, SEXY...SEXY...SEXY...Just looking at his pic makes me want to have a sexy time with brandon boyd...hahahaha!

MAY 14....

is the local election day here in the Philippines. Not really excited about it though, i don't know who I am going to vote for senator.. Philippines is known for corrupt politicians, well in my opinion, all politicians are the same, they are all corrupt, so might as well vote for the candidate who is the most decent and smart looking...

I have conversed with an ordinary security guard while I'm having a cigarette break, and we have talked about the elections...He said that he will be voting for those candidates who are young and smart...because these young candidates are more aggressive than those veteran candidates..

So far, I'll be voting for these candidates:


Manny Villar...when I was in college, this guy went to our school to have a seminar regarding entrepreneurship, and I can say that this guy has CHARMS. He walked inside the room and all students stopped chatting and was silenced by his aura. Well, he is an ENTREPRENEUR, and he had the right to talk about entrepreneurship. His business is real estate and I think he owns LAS PIñAS because of his housing business. He was not born from a well-off family, he started from scratch and all his money (which is in billions, real estate alone) were earned from his own sweat and hardwork. I like this guy, I don't think he'll be robbing the country's money because his great great great great grand children will survive and will be living an luxurious life with his existing assets.

Chiz Escudero...young, smart and aggressive...have seen this guy on a local TV debate show for senators and I can say that he really stood out on the crowd...he answered the host's questions with brief, concise and straight to the point answers unlike those veterans who likes to spin their answers around (not getting the point really!) I was really impressed...one sure vote for this guy...

Alan Peter Cayetano...son of the former senator Renato Cayetano..I saw this guy on the local news exposing the first gentleman's dirty transactions involving the president's savings in Germany...very brave and feisty!! maybe he's got bright plans for the country, I hope..



Noynoy Aquino...son of the late Ninoy Aquino and former president Cory Aquino (and brother of the famous host Kris Aquino, hehehe)...this guy is smart, you can tell from his looks, hehehe...nerdy enough for me...I don't think this guy is corrupt, I don't know why but I've got a good feeling on this guy so I'll be voting him...

Wow! out of the 36 candidates, I'll be voting only 4...what a pity...I don't want to vote for those artists who are wannabe senators...one good reason: they do not know about politics! Even a lawyer-senator is having a hard time passing a law here in the Philippines, then tell me how can an ordinary-good looking artist can pass a law??? Are they gonna smile on their fellow senators???

Well, that's about it for the mean time...